Okay, I have the cards laid out, so now the reading begins. I used the World Tree Spread here, and where it starts, is at the roots.
The root of the issue, it seems, is an inner expression of Boredom. This boredom is a real sickness of the soul, as I am sure you understand as an artist. In reality, the inspiration lies all around you, but you simply do not have the spark in your eyes to see! It is a difficult time, yes, but in your heart there is the spark that you need to get moving again! Perhaps there is a dam in your river of life, and you must break through it. Whatever this challenge is or whatever it stems from, rise to this occasion, because the world does not need another artist retiring or losing that spark too early! The key here is you. If you have a question or a request of the universe, ask it, and it will answer in kind with more inspiration than you can stand, if that is what you desire!
The branches, the possibilities of this issue seem to be a few different things. Reunion suggests that you may need to face your true nature, or that you might need to reflect on a past experience with new light and wisdom, so that you might gain more insight or inspiration from it. Do not bury who you are, or you will become a ghost. Ask your inner voice what you need to reunite yourself with, as it could even be something along the lines of a lover whom you have been waiting for or expecting. This person is someone you have known before, if they are what you are expecting. Take a look back at what has brought you here, and see if retracing your steps doesn’t enlighten you or give you some inspiration.
Very clearly, the next card representing what you must take with you, shows that you need to learn Respect in some aspect. This is a challenge to your integrity and your motivations by Ancient wisdom, trying to determine if you are worthy of what you seek. Respect and humility are key here, and if you arm yourself with them, then you will be renewed in vigor in your spiritual quest with this challenge beaten, and the way cleared for you.
This card representing what you must leave behind, Fulfillment, is a little perplexing to me. Perhaps it represents that you should seek greener pastures for your enlightenment, as perhaps the current source of spiritual energy isn’t enough (and I know you said it wasn’t) and you need to move on from that fact. Move away from your focus on your own fulfillment and seek greener pastures for not just yourself, but for those that you would share it with.
Looking into your hopes in this spiritual journey you have embarked on, I see the Adder, and that represents a few things as well! This case, however, I see only two things it could be, and that is either that you really hope to take control of this situation and see it to the end, or it describing what you hope for in a partner! If it is the latter, then you hope for an honorable, charismatic partner likely with a strong, defined jaw and trustworthy eyes!
What you fear, on the other hand, is facing your fear, from what I understand. Empowerment, here, represents what you should be facing so that you can become stronger and take hold of your destiny, but you do not want to deal with the challenge, or feel like you are not ready. You must engage the problem, because leaving it to chance rather than choice is promoting the stagnation you are trying to rid yourself of.
The way through the woods, Michael, is represented here. This card is the outcome, or what you are looking for in this journey, and that is Generosity. Perhaps this is what you need to get you out of this slump, my friend. Try giving, but not just physically. Give of yourself, and of your time, and see if you cannot find the light you have been looking for in charity work. Good will brings happiness, and happiness is like your beacon for your desires!
The final card in this spread represents the Hidden Wisdom of the World Tree. This always runs deep, and especially this time, for you. On this journey you must find your self-discipline, and arm yourself with persevering dedication to learning or mastering a Skill or ability that you have. Whether this is a manual labor sort of thing or an artistic ability, you must define it and what brings it out of you. Self-expression is beautiful, and by definition, mysterious and pure of source. Find what evokes the greatest desire for self-expression in yourself and discover a new angle on what has been in front of you all along. A time of spiritual depression can never be easy, but you can work yourself out of it by distracting your mind with busy hands. I know you’re an artist, so I’ll just say this: Get out whatever you need to create, and just start doing it. Don’t think about it, just arm yourself with your weapons and fight imaginary enemies. Hone your skills with a calm, resolute temperament and by the time you are finished, well…you’ll likely feel much better, but it will probably be in more beautiful and complex words than that! Keep your artistic ability in mind when facing tough times, as any emotion can be used as fuel with the right process.
I hope this was enlightening for you, because it definitely was for me! I enjoyed doing your reading and anytime you would like to ask more questions, you are absolutely welcome to do so! I wish you the best of luck in dealing with the situation you have been dealing with, and I hope equally that you find someone to love, because it seems like you could use it more than ever. That brings us to the end of this look into your journey, Michael, and I wish on you the many blessings of the Divine.