Cedargrass Oracle
Insane Relationships

I am in a perpetual state of wondering, “Why am I still here doing the same things over and over with no resolve or change in outcome?" Einstein termed insanity as doing the same things expecting a different result each time. Surely continuing this relationship is insanity, no matter how much I love him and want to work things out. He has to want to work things out, too, which means doing something rather saying something. I do things all the time like trying to compromise, be fair, be logical, and try to be considerate and fair to us both in what we want and what goes on.

I used to think we were like sodium and water needing our one chloride to make us stable rather explosive, but now I just think we’re two atoms waiting to split. Arguing with him (even maturely as in a case or suit) is like arguing with a child who doesn’t know any better. He is so contradictory and double standard.

I was really pissed off during an argument over switching my studio with our master bedroom that we both sleep in. I put up a very detailed case as to why I deserve the space and how I would benefit most, which was all based on logic. His only argument was that he’s wanted a big room his entire life and it’s kind of a status thing. He also thinks that I can have the creepy, smelly, dark, damp, noisy basement as my studio. AS MY STUDIO. He gave me no logical reason why he deserves the space over me other than ego and pride. I need it for more natural light for my mental health, the space for my art things that are still packed and ritual space, the moon-facing window for charging objects during a full moon and rituals (it faces west, my current window is north), etc. So I got mad that he wouldn’t budge, explained to him that he was being illogical, unfair, double-standard, and childish, so I pulled four cards: One for me, one for him, a middle card for the outcome, and a clarity card for lessons.

Four Card Spread- Devil, Sun, 8w⇓, Justice⇓

He’s my bad habit and I should probably just leave (Devil) because he’s never going to learn or change because he refuses to budge towards my guidance (8w⇓) and nothing will ever get better, which is should be amazing (Sun), because he won’t change and I get too impatient with him to be the therapist and teacher of this relationship. So my best course of action is determine why I’m here and keep convincing myself of lies (Justice⇓) that not even I should believe?

Or perhaps I’m being biased and angry as hell and the spread is really saying that things will only get better (Sun) if I stop getting mad before he does and going off the handle (Devil) and that it’s not his fault he’s so damn dense (8w⇓) and doesn’t know how to communicate properly or know how to understand (Justice⇓).

Either way, bias or none, I get the impression that we both should be able to communicate properly without Ego (Devil, Sun). But on his side, he’s just so 8w⇓ in that he’s impatient also, but he’s actually too stubborn to change, and it may relate to that not being right at all (Justice⇓), and it’s not right. But it’s also not right when I get mad because things aren’t going my way (Devil). Yes, what I’m doing is noble, I feel, but I have to be patient and just keep explaining my side and how things can get better.

The benefits of using this spread
Superimpose a main theme over the connection such as love, work, family, acquaintances, strangers, or partnerships. This will apply to experiences with that person involving the theme, #5, #9, and soul journey cards will be influenced by the theme.
Understand another person’s perspective that you might be missing out on due to anger or confusion.
Figure out which main perspective of yours created the way you feel about someone.
See exactly how that person views you and why they do.
Decide if a relationship is worth it or not to continue being friends/lovers, etc.
Get some steam off your chest before approaching someone.
Figure how to repair a relationship that you’re not yet ready to exit.
Feel confident and righteous in your decision to leave a bad, fake, unhealthy, or unproductive relationship/friendship with someone.
If you feel lost about a particular card or the situation, don’t hesitate to pull clarity cards, they will offer a depth and dynamic.
Example spread

Theme: Work
Background: I quit a job yet I’m still in contact with an ex-coworker through a social network medium such as Facebook. Should I stop communicating with this person, why or why not?

8 Cups Rvs- It’s time to move on, the major lesson here was to learn when to quit a relationship when it no longer benefits you. Both should take into consideration what was good and keep those memories.
9 Pentacles- It was a great relationship in work, but there was never any desire to further a friendship beyond it.
Ace Wands Rvs- They’re not an evil person for feeling this way. It’s neither right nor wrong, it just is. The fact is that there was never really any major attraction for friendship; This relates back to the 9 of Pentacles.
9 Cups Rvs- From the occurrences at work. He was a decent friend to me given the card, but again, it goes back to the fact that he’s not jumping up for glee to further the friendship.
Pentacle Queen- This card relates to me in spreads actually, so the major lesson here is that he just witnessed a different type of person (queen of pentacles meanings) and I think who I am had touched him.
10 Pentacles Rvs- He was a great friend in-work and taught me a few things that will benefit me, also that he won’t stay long in my life whether I choose not to divide or not given the reversal of the ‘legacy’ card.
Hierophant Rvs- It is what it is, me quitting did not affect his view of me I feel, that no one influenced him to feel the way he did, given the nature of traditions and the reversal. I felt all this, which is why I don’t see him so negatively.
5 Wands Rvs- There was a lot of opposition and fighting at work which led to my quitting, so I wondered how our friendship would sustain.
6 Pentacles Rvs- I gained a lot of nice experience from his mentoring at work, but I also will understand when to express my knowledge, too. Receive but give also. When to be open, but to cut that off when your own intuition must come out.
Strength- Not really going anywhere, but you can remain in contact but it won’t really evolve further.
9 Swords Rvs- No real contact after that, both will not seek each other out.
Death Rvs- No real need to stay friends, it’s not going anywhere.

The benefits of using this spread

  • Superimpose a main theme over the connection such as love, work, family, acquaintances, strangers, or partnerships. This will apply to experiences with that person involving the theme, #5, #9, and soul journey cards will be influenced by the theme.
  • Understand another person’s perspective that you might be missing out on due to anger or confusion.
  • Figure out which main perspective of yours created the way you feel about someone.
  • See exactly how that person views you and why they do.
  • Decide if a relationship is worth it or not to continue being friends/lovers, etc.
  • Get some steam off your chest before approaching someone.
  • Figure how to repair a relationship that you’re not yet ready to exit.
  • Feel confident and righteous in your decision to leave a bad, fake, unhealthy, or unproductive relationship/friendship with someone.
  • If you feel lost about a particular card or the situation, don’t hesitate to pull clarity cards, they will offer a depth and dynamic.
Example spread
  • Theme: Work
  • Background: I quit a job yet I’m still in contact with an ex-coworker through a social network medium such as Facebook. Should I stop communicating with this person, why or why not?
  1. 8 Cups Rvs- It’s time to move on, the major lesson here was to learn when to quit a relationship when it no longer benefits you. Both should take into consideration what was good and keep those memories.
  2. 9 Pentacles- It was a great relationship in work, but there was never any desire to further a friendship beyond it.
  3. Ace Wands Rvs- They’re not an evil person for feeling this way. It’s neither right nor wrong, it just is. The fact is that there was never really any major attraction for friendship; This relates back to the 9 of Pentacles.
  4. 9 Cups Rvs- From the occurrences at work. He was a decent friend to me given the card, but again, it goes back to the fact that he’s not jumping up for glee to further the friendship.
  5. Pentacle Queen- This card relates to me in spreads actually, so the major lesson here is that he just witnessed a different type of person (queen of pentacles meanings) and I think who I am had touched him.
  6. 10 Pentacles Rvs- He was a great friend in-work and taught me a few things that will benefit me, also that he won’t stay long in my life whether I choose not to divide or not given the reversal of the ‘legacy’ card.
  7. Hierophant Rvs- It is what it is, me quitting did not affect his view of me I feel, that no one influenced him to feel the way he did, given the nature of traditions and the reversal. I felt all this, which is why I don’t see him so negatively.
  8. 5 Wands Rvs- There was a lot of opposition and fighting at work which led to my quitting, so I wondered how our friendship would sustain.
  9. 6 Pentacles Rvs- I gained a lot of nice experience from his mentoring at work, but I also will understand when to express my knowledge, too. Receive but give also. When to be open, but to cut that off when your own intuition must come out.
  10. Strength- Not really going anywhere, but you can remain in contact but it won’t really evolve further.
  11. 9 Swords Rvs- No real contact after that, both will not seek each other out.
  12. Death Rvs- No real need to stay friends, it’s not going anywhere.
Magic, a Scientific Perspective

I just want to know why it’s so impossible or silly to suggest that spiritual concepts like life force and magic are so anti-scientific. Why can’t they be forces of the natural universe which we’ve yet to fully study. The Vatican made sure to put the scrutiny on science because it wanted to be full lord-based. And people say magic cannot be repeatable or measured like how science can be. Magic is not supposed to be scientific, it’s mystical, but why is everything under the scrutiny of Science in terms of authenticity or existence? Who says that because it does not fall under the qualifications of what men have categorized as ‘Science,’ it does not mean it falls under its own unnamed or undiscovered category?

Magic has always been called mysticism or spirit-science to those who practice it. It is a way of life and a science people have yet to understand globally in the modern era, but thousands of years ago, magic was the science of back then. In our modern world, I believe Modern/Conventional Science has hypothesized that in ancient days, anything not explained or understood was dumped into the “magic” category, which I can agree to some extent. We saw this in the weather patterns of non-modern days, that if the gods were not appeased, there would be droughts, thus rain dances were conducted. We know now that weather is a somewhat predictable pattern when using the knowledge of Meteorology and science.

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The Eye of Horus
Created this spread on a train to Boston about 4 years ago. I’ve used it for evaluating relationships of love, friendships, classmates, and those in opposing view sides for clarity on both ends.

The Eye of Horus

Created this spread on a train to Boston about 4 years ago. I’ve used it for evaluating relationships of love, friendships, classmates, and those in opposing view sides for clarity on both ends.